I’m going to be honest and upfront with you. I have a major case of F.O.M.O. {Fear of missing out}. I have always been this way, in fact, it’s probably the one quality that my husband appreciates the least about me. See, I’m married to someone with a major case of L.J.S.N.A.S.H. {Let’s just say no and stay home}. While I’m sitting on the couch most Saturday mornings, sipping coffee and trying to figure out how I can squeeze coffee in with my girlfriend on our way to my sister’s house, and what time we need to leave to make it to our friend’s anniversary party that evening, my husband is sitting on the couch concocting ways that we can get out of all of it and not actually have to put real pants on that day. After six years of marriage, we finally found a good rhythm that seemed to create a balance between my “I want to do everything “and his “I want to do nothing”…..then we had a baby.
Babies change everything. Everyone tells you that they do. And you believe them, but you don’t really stop and think about what that will actually look like on a Saturday night. I was not prepared for the impact this tiny human was going to have on my social life. I really think that before Ellie, I pictured myself sitting at a party with my pristine little one sitting politely on my lap while I sipped wine and laughed with friends. Ha. You know what 11 month olds hate? Sitting politely on their mom’s lap. You know what they love? Crawling inside of your friend’s fireplace or scaling her bookcase. Reality almost never looks like what you hoped it would when you have a baby.
We took Ellie to her first party when she was about 6 weeks old. She slept in her daddy’s arms for most of the party and when she was awake, she was the hit of the party. Sitting on the couch, feeding her while snacking on appetizers and talking to girlfriends, I remember thinking, “This is great. We’re totally doing it. We had a baby, but it didn’t really change anything.” 6 week olds make great accessories at parties and other social outings. They don’t weigh much, they sleep pretty much anywhere, and as long as milk is within reach, they don’t really care where they are or what time it is. 11 month olds are a whole different story. Ellie knows within about 10 minutes when it is 8:00. That’s when she likes to be in her snuggle suit, rocking in her chair, paci in mouth, and then sleeping in her bed. To keep her on schedule, I find myself needing to say “no” a lot more these days {which is a huge adjustment for me}.
I will never fully lose my F.O.M.O., but when I became a mama, something inside of me physically changed. My priorities shifted. Someone else’s needs suddenly trumped my own. Am I saying that I’m the perfect mama who never feels the pangs of disappointment when she has to cancel plans because the baby is sick? Hell no. But this new season in my life has changed a few things, including the need to use the word “no” more often. Here’s what I know to be true:
- Saying “no” to something always means saying “yes” to something else. In this case, it’s saying “yes” to my little girl. It seems obvious, but it’s still important to remember that your time is your little one’s most valuable possession.
- Because I can’t say “yes” to everything anymore, it’s made me have to really think about what’s really important, or more importantly WHO’S important. Time is valuable. If I say “yes,” it’s because you breathe joy into my life.
- Friendships are going to change when you have a baby. People you used to see every week might become people you see once a month. It doesn’t mean you love them any less; it just means that your life is different now, and that’s okay.
- This is a season. Babies need their parents in what can sometimes feel like an all-consuming way. It won’t always be that way.
- You will treasure and appreciate moments when you are able to say “yes” in a way you may not have before.
After some time, you might be surprised to find that your F.O.M.O has suddenly turned into F.O.M.Y.B. {Fear of Missing Your Baby}. While I certainly value every sweet morsel of adult time that I get these days, there’s also this fierce physical longing for my little one when I’m away from her for any significant period of time. Last Saturday night looked a lot different than a Saturday night a few years ago. My husband and I sat in the floor of our daughter’s room while she reveled in the discovery of learning how to roll a ball back and forth. She squealed in delight. We read a few stories and all were in bed asleep by 9.
{That’s worth the “no.”}